This was my first time traveling outside the US. And we wanted to go on an awesome trip together so we came to Jamaica! It's beyond words to express the beauty of this place. The people are so awesome too. There was a tropical storm while we were there and we still loved every moment of it! But we can back up for a second and I can tell you right before this trip rob and I moved in together and were planning on getting married sometime soon. But he told me because of this trip he didn't have any extra money to get my engagement ring. (that he designed himself) Little did I know that was a trick! and he was going to purpose in jamaica! Oh how romantic your thinking... Turns out purposing is a really scary thing for someone who isn't good with words, and he chickened out! He didn't do it when we were on the beach alone at night and the weather was perfect! ....Then he had set it up on our last day there, that I would find it when my phone alarm went off. and I still didn't see it, because I didn't want to have to shut it off, then wake him up. I wanted the alarm to wake him up. Any time I've ever tried to wake him up he's cranky at me all morning. So to prevent that I just let the alarm continue to go off. Then he was bummed because his little plan didn't work out. So he put the ring away. At the airport he was acting weird and I'm clueless to the whole thing. I get on this communication kick. that he needs to let me know whats going on in his head because its not fair for me to know something is wrong but unless he tells me we cant get passed it together.. I guess I felt like he was being distant and I was mad about it. So he finally says " I have the ring.." so i jump up and say "Okay I'm ready!!!"
then he goes on to tell me the whole story of how it was supposed to happen and he backed himself into a corner and how everyone knows he was going to purpose in Jamaica so he effed it all up. So I'm still sitting there thinking wellllll, you can just do it right now. then he thought in an airport was lame. So I start crying because its so close but he's to stubborn to roll with the punches. Then I couldn't stop crying.. were boarding the plane and I'm crying. were taking off and I'm still crying. All I could think is.... if he can't do it in Jamaica, when the hell is he ever going to do it!?? So he leans over and says " I'm So Sorry" and all I said back was " I Just want this so bad!!! " he reply's " I do too Sydnee." ( when he calls me Sydnee that's when you know he's serious and heartfelt. regular days its just Syd) We talked it all out and he told me it would be soon when he did it.. so it made the whole day awkward and antsy because I can't control myself when I know surprises are coming.
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